MY HOLIDAY IS CRAP!!NO FUN BUT STUDY STUDY STUDY.
ONLY THING THAT MY PARENTS WOULD WANT ME TO DO
CRAP SHIT..

we two meet again after so many years.
i did not know of it at first
but till she told me that she has a crush on me before .
i dont know what am i suppose to feel
happy?excited?shocked?
i dont know.
but i do know something for now
i am very obsessed with her now.
what am i suppose to do ?
and to whoever reading this post.
dont ask who is she
you all wont know who is she anyway
hopefully i will get a lead on what to do

Alone

Every year every month every day every hour every minute every second
i take a look around the people around me
it seems very crowded
it seems there is a lot of people around me
but somehow
i feel like i am in the middle of an island with no one else with me
is this what it mean by loneliness?
is this what it feels likes to be alone ?
i am like a bottle
even though its full and spilling out
but i am still feeling empty in me
my friends are they even my real friends?
if i treat them as a friend
will i be treated the same way i did?

I treat my friends as my friends..
but in return
i am being treated as a friend that has a value to be used
or maybe sometimes treated as a tool
..i am sick of friends like these..
i am rather off better without friends of such
my life in school
can never be anymore worse..
if its anymore worse..
i really dont know whats worth remembering of my school life
which i doubt that there is anything worth of my school life..

I dont wish to be hated..
but i have my reasons for my actions and decisions
if you have to hate me
i cant do anything about it
maybe its because of my straightforward attitude that makes
my decision so harsh..

ITS A CELEBRATION

I GOT MY PHONE BACK D ...
BOTH DIGI AND MAXIS..
FEEL FREE TO CALL OR TEXT ME

thanks

thanks for talking to me that night..
your encouragement meant a lot
even though i think i might have bored you
but you were there to try to help me think through
thanks for your encouragement